Eprops for King David

Why hello there!

Ok so anyway,
For me, when i do QT's these days, im reading Psalms. And Psalms is sweet, like, I love it. Theres mad verses that help me with my personal struggles, and it's really been helping me alot recently. Seriously, i would recommend it to anyone, and i know it'll help you. But theres two things i dont like about Psalms.

01) It's long. 150 chapters: i do 5 a day and its still gonna take me 30 days, which is a month. long time
and
02) I dont like King David. i think he's a wuss.

Now I know some of you are saying "How can you not like him, he owned the philistine Goliath. thats so badass." or "What? I love reading David and his struggles and how you can see God answering his prayers!" Ok, he was a great, God fearing man. But i felt like his faith was so fickle. For example, One chapter, he'd be using eloquent words and poetry to talk about how good God is, and hey, I have no beef with that. If i were vocabularily gifted, i'd praise God like that too. I dont even think "vocabularily" is even a word. thats how bad i am with words. but yeah, no beef with David on that one. But then in the very next chapter, David would be complaining that God forgot about him in his struggles with people trying to kill him. Like, i know King David trusts God with all his heart, but why does he give up hope so quickly, jumping to the conclusion that God forsook him (again, probably not a real word. but think past present of forsake). And then when God answered david's prayers and saves him from his pursuers, all of a sudden David forgets that he's been crying about God forsaking him and holding out on His deliverance and praises God with body and song all day long. And this was a repeated cycle througout the entire first book of Psalms. All these things considered, I didnt think too highly of King David. I thought of him as a little kid.

*GASP*
Joe, how can you say all these things?

HOWEVER, today, for the first time since i started doing my own QT, i read the Word looking at the context. More-so than the actual verses. Usually I would search for verses themselves, to find something that i can relate to, or can individually give me the encouragement and strength that i needed at that moment. But taking a look at the bigger picture was different. Today, by the end of my qt, i hadn't highlighted anything in the bible. But at the same time, it gave me a WHOLE NEW perspective of the main message. And this is what i realized:

I'm no different from King David.

I love God with all my heart. I praise Him whenever i get a chance. (im not trying to say im an awesome christian, dont misinterpret- but anyway) When i am in trouble, I pray to God to save me. And who else is there to turn to right? And He does; God always pulls through. So far, sounds like King David right? alright, but now what happens to me when I face my deepest struggles? My struggles with selfish desire, my "onlys," the temporary idols that i create in my life, etc. I trust in God, and praise Him when things go well, but when these things pop up, what then? When s*** hits the fan, I bug out. I get bitter, listen to non-praise music, not want to do anything, and worst of all, I question if God is still where i can put all my trust. not word for word, but i say something along the lines of "Have you forsaken me?" But then God shakes me out of my ignorance, He hears my prayers, and shows me reassurance, through whatever, to show me that I was dumb to question my trust in Him. Repeat cycle.

All the things I had beef with in David's actions, I found in myself.

How fickle we are, as humans? Yeah, man is so sinful. All we have, ultimately, is God. But when it seems to go against our deepest, selfish desires, we get bitter. Lord, forgive me; forgive us. We are too fickle, and we turn away from you, but God you are so good, you dont give up on us, and you show us the reassurance we always need. God is good. I just need strength, trust, and patience.

WHOM HAVE I IN HEAVEN BUT YOU? AND EARTH HAS NOTHING I DESIRE BESIDES YOU. (Psalms 73:25).