people change

Wow, what could have possibly inspired me to spend a good however-long-this-is-going-to-take to write in my blog once again. maybe its the reassurance that no one is going to read it, but here i go again.

let me first ask a question: do you believe that people are the way they are from birth, or do they develop their personalities over time and experience? thats a pretty legit philosophy question, right? definitely can be argued both ways.

id say that over the past 2 and a half months, i went through a period of change because of stuff i went through. and i'm thankful for the experience it has given me; this change, in my opinion was positive. i just interacted with people differently, and i started thinking about things differently, and in turn changing my actions. It was even to the point where i would say to myself "this is so unlike you, joe."

but again, its not something i think is terribly negative. im having fun. im being me. who was going to have a problem with that? but recently I took some time to reflect- is this what i want? - am i being an asshole? - it may be fun, but in the end you're just gonna be alone - why the lack of heart in everything?

this mini revelation inspired some thinking...maybe iv changed for the worse.
or maybe this is just temporary me lying to myself. i dont know.